"For the eyes of the LORD move to and fro throughout the earth that He may strongly support those whose heart is completely His." 2 Chronicles 16:9
What a week this has been- if not just an emotional roller coaster, but also a spiritual awakening to all that God is doing in the world. To be honest, I need a day to just sit and absorb it all. But alas, work and life doesn't have a time for that just yet, so blogging will have to do. :)
Monday I dropped Jasmine off for a TAG beach trip and Jordan off for Band Camp. It felt totally surreal to realize that I am officially no longer in charge of their education. I will have opportunities to help, but as I waved goodbye, I knew our special time these last few years were over. And as much as I tried to be excited for this new stage, I was in reality- totally depressed. Bawling as you drive away is understandable for a Kindergarten Mom... not so much for a Freshman Mom.
Fast forward to Thursday, and all the amazing God Stops this week. I realized how often I parent out of fear. Fear that they will make the same mistakes I did, fear that I have missed teaching them something crucial, fear that they won't feel loved and understood, fear that they won't enjoy life to it's fullest and live for Jesus. As I sat in the stadium yesterday watching Jo in the drum line, I felt like I was walking on clouds as God just poured one truth after another into my heart. He answered every prayer I had this week in such an astounding way- I can't even begin to describe in this type of format. If I didn't know my son would drop dead out of embarrassment- I would have been standing on the railing screaming at the top of my lungs about how awesome God is!
For the first time, I truly feel ready for this Great Adventure my kids are heading to and not just forcing the words out of my mouth. I know that in all things, God is working FOR them- and He will do amazing things so that we can shout to the rooftops- "Fear Not! God is Powerful!" (I am still in VBS speech)Now let's just hope I can keep that belief on the first day of school. :)
"the LORD is with you when you are with Him. And if you seek Him, He will let you find Him.." 2 Chronicles 15:2
