"If I error- let me error on the side of faith."

Each day this week has reminded me of something silly, and something encouraging, and I don't want it to stop! Crazy business with school, my working and Steve's new job, but I truly wouldn't have it any other way. As I process the end of this school year, and the end of homeschooling; as I care for my patients and hear the worries on their hearts, I feel God's presence right next to me, almost like He is saying, "It's going to be alright." My new Bible study gave a name to these events, the little moments in a day where God obviously put His hand out to help (or in my case, put His hand over my mouth and said, "DO NOT say that to your husband right now!) They are called "God Stops". No matter how trivial, or how profound, we all have them every day, and yet I have often been too busy to stop and notice. Writing them down in my journal every night has helped me identify them, and I can't stop laughing at how good our God is. He really can do what He says He can do!

The song to the right on my playlist is one of my favorites, and for the first time- I finally heard the chorus...

"Cause I got a couple dents in my fender,
Got a couple rips in my jeans.
Try to fit the pieces together-
But perfection is my enemy.
On my own I'm so clumsy,
But on Your shoulders I can see...
I'm free to be me." Francesca Battistelli

I have struggled with faith for years- knowing that I don't have enough, and knowing that I don't deserve more. But that is my own ugly saying that- God doesn't see me that way at all. I constantly keep trying to do it on my own, to be perfect, to have it together- and in all honesty, I suck at it. Beth Moore says it so well in one of her lessons- "God's call on my life is scandalous!...He risks His name and reputation on a pit dweller like me..." That is how I rightly feel sometimes, because I know what a lying, cheating, mean, ugly, nasty (insert explective here) I am. But that is the awesome glory of God- that He isn't limited to my fallen state, but can perform a miracle in my heart each and every day that I choose to BELIEVE Him at His word! "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day." 2 Corinthians 4:16 He has said that the old me is going away and the new me is alive, day by day, as I trust God to do a miracle. If I would be His little girl, and climb up on His shoulders to let Him take me through my day, I could "see"...and I would feel a lot freer to just "be me".
My fear of believing God- you know, in case He doesn't come through- has kept me from being able to dream and hope BIG! Hope and faith go hand in hand throughout the Bible, if I don't have faith in God, I can't have hope in what he plans to do. And what a loss.

It is impossible to "live the Walk of Faith without faith", because sooner or later, life is going to throw us a curve ball we can't think, talk, work, or fight our way through. And that is when KNOWING that our God is big enough really matters. It's when we "get down to the nitty gritty" as Nacho Libre says and we realize that God has the supernatural strength and goodness to heal the brokenness of our spirit and work a miracle in our hearts more amazing than the parting of the Red Sea. Amen! With my God, ALL things are possible! Help us to remember it, Lord. And start fresh today- believing You at Your word. I love you, friends. :)
(I can finally share these photos of Shadow without crying...Wahoo!)

He is who He says He is...

"He is Elohim Creator, Omnipotent who rules,
Sovereign King of Glory and earth is His footstool.
He is the Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end,
He sends forth lighting that later checks back in with Him.

He speaks worlds into existence and spins them out in space,
He gives orders to the morning and shows the dawn it's place.
He prophesies the future and orders it fulfilled,
He bears fruit from a landscape that man has never tilled.

He feeds the beasts of the field from the palm of His hand,
He watches while they bear their young then teaches them to stand.
He gives the seas their boundaries and hides His creatures deep,
He teaches eagles how to fly and nest upon the steep.

He makes the clouds His chariot,
and rides on wings of wind.
He champions the victim,
and brings proud men to end.

He is Emmanuel God with us come to earth through Christ.
He is the Kinsman Redeemer who paid the slave man's price.
He is the King of Kings, Lord of Lords, and worthy is the Lamb.
He holds the keys to life eternal where the dead in Christ now stand.
He is enthroned between the cherub and great is His reward,
the devil His defeated foe, the weapon His swift sword.

This story has a moral so I'll hasten less you tire.
Whoever you perceived He is-
You might aim a little higher."
Beth Moore Poem Elohim from "Further Still"
Taken from the Believing God Bible Study

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Believing God...

What a week, and I can't even be glad it is Friday yet because it's only Wednesday. Bah! I hate starting a new job, so how is it that I keep torturing myself with new hospitals, clinics, whatever? I know- the benefits far out way the trouble, but today I feel like my brain is mush from all the new information. Let's hope in a month or so it will be old hat, and then I can whine about being bored again.

Things are busy on the home front- trying to find out what needs to happen for Jordan to be able to get into Biology next year rather than Earth Science, Jasmine is rocking her studies, and Steve is still looking for work, but God is using this experience to grow patience and faith (mostly in me as I have to adjust my PLANS to accommodate another person- yeah, little control freak is busting some blood vessels).
(BTW: The photos were just for entertainment- I just can't figure out my crazy husband. What is up with the beards, and the hair? Hahahaha! Gotta love him!)


I started a new study this week, and it was truly a God thing. I haven't wanted to get too involved with people in general over the last couple of years, and I don't know why, but God always seems to have other plans. He literally FORCED me into a Beth Moore Study with three other ladies- and I am so glad! I walked away Tuesday feeling totally blessed by their words, the Scriptures, and the prayer time. Hmmmm...God's way is certainly the best way!

The study is "Believing God", and focuses on the fact that as long as our "Theology" doesn't merge with our "Reality", we won't ever really know what it is to live by faith. Beth Moore said something that really struck me: "You confess that you believe in God- but do you BELIEVE God?" That is something that has always been a struggle for me, because I know what a louse I am, and why would God bless me? But in even the first week- Beth Moore just reiterates all the promises God made to those who love Him, and talked about our "Promised Land". It was awesome. The study revolves around 5 key points, so if you see me walking around making strange hand gestures, know that it is part of the lesson- and not that I am finally losing it. :)

5 Statements of Faith
1. God is who He says He is.
2. God can do what He says He can do.
3. I am who God says I am.
4. I can do all things through Christ.
5. God's Word is alive and active in me.

Hurray for that! God bless you, friends- find the "Promised Land" God made for you here!